IN A SECRET RELATIONSHIP

Twelve chapters are over. Another 365 days are gone. This year has had it’s ups and down. I started of 2022 with a lot of optimism – and I was excited for a new year. I finally got to go back to work after months of staying home due to the pandemic. My family and I went on a trip to Hemsedal. We laughed. We snowboarded – and we had a wonderful time.

2022 was also the year I turned 30. The big 30. I was excited to start a new decade and I celebrated with all my family and dearest friends. Then easter came.. and I got covid!

Little did I know that this year should turn out to be one of the not so good years. After I started to feel a little better – when the fever and cough went away – I was left with this burning sensation in my stomach and chest – and I never knew it was going to last for the next 9 months. The burning chest. The stomach pain. Constant acid reflux. And when I thought it couldn’t get any worse.. The chronic nausea came to stay.

The summer of my dreams.. didn’t quite turn out as planned, but I’m grateful I got to do a little traveling this past summer. Even though I ended up spending two whole days of our vacation in a pitch black hotel room with a headache and stomach pain – I did have fun and the memories will last for a lifetime.

This year I’ve spent weeks in bed and I’ve cried tons of tears – but it hasn’t been all bad. I have smiled. I have laughed. I have made memories. All the suffering and pain has given me a new perspective on life and it has made me appreciate the good days even more. You don’t know how good life is until something happens and you can’t enjoy it the way you used to.

Two months ago I was finally diagnosed with IBS and a hiatal hernia after months of pain, tears and suffer. I’m now glad I know the cause of my symptoms and pain and I really hope 2023 will be a better year for me. I pray every single day that my chronic nausea will say goodbye and leave me all alone.

Last month we decided to try the vacation thing again and we jumped on a plane to Spain. I was afraid I was going to spend another vacay in bed, but it actually turned out better than expected. Maybe it was the sun? Or the warm weather or happy memories? But I ended up having a great time and I’ll forever be grateful for that trip! Grateful to my body for not making me feel worse, but maybe even a little better?! I got a break from it all – and it was just what I needed!

Even if the year wasn’t completely what I wanted or what I hoped for – it is the journey called life. We all walk on a path, and where it will take us – nobody knows – but at the end it will all turn out for the better. I’m now ready to start fresh and I’m ready for the opportunities and adventures that lay ahead in 2023.

“Every man has two lives, and the second starts when he realizes he has just one” – Confucius

This quote really touched my heart. Each and every year we get a new chance. A new book filled with 365 pages – so what are you going to do this coming year? In 2023 I will live by this quote. We only have one life and once we realize it – we can finally start living. What do you REALLY want to do? How do you want to live? Think about that and promise me that you’re going to give yourself a year to do YOU. If you don’t really feel like doing something.. then don’t.

In 2023 learn to say no. Leave negative energy behind. Take a chance. Start to hang out with people that get’s you excited about life. Say goodbye to those that doesn’t give you hope or excitement. If someone or something takes your energy away – your hope – your dreams.. it’s time to leave it all behind – and whatever you do – don’t turn around. Let’s make 2023 a better year – even if it may turn out just the same as last year – you can at least say that you did try. If you want to change school.. Do it. Not happy at work? Quit. If you dream about opening your own business.. Get started. I believe in you and I want you to create memories. And I want you to create the life that you really want.

I’ve decided that in 2023 I’m going to follow my dreams. I will find inner peace and focus on my mental heath and seek inwards. I will learn to say no. I want to stress down with daily meditation and yoga. I will live each day. Appreciate each minute and all my good days. I want to give myself this year – from me to me. It’s time to leave the negative thoughts and words behind. Let’s bring on positivity, peace and a happy mindset.

So even if things are a little bit hard right now.. Remember that all your wounds will heal, but you’ll have to be patient, because it will take time. Maybe Days. Weeks. Or even months.. But when that day finally comes; you’ll see how beautiful life can be! All my best wishes ♥

Happy New Year!

Lots of love. Xo